Today was one of the best days of my life! Today I found out that I am PREGNANT!!!!!! Patrick and I have been trying for about four months now and today I got my first positive home pregnancy test. I woke up today knowing that my temp was still high for my chart even though it was 4:30am instead of 6:45 like I usually get up. I couldn't go back to sleep. I had to pee so bad. lol. I went and got a cup and a pregnancy test and reminded myself that I was only 12 days past ovulation and that chances of a positive result were low (30%), but at the urging of my friends on the Getting Pregnant board on thenest.com and knowing that I had felt bad all week, and that I was exactly one day late, I took the test. It was the most important test of my life, and I couldn't tell if I had passed???? I could see a tiny tinge of pink but couldn't be sure. I went into the bedroom and woke up Patrick. Bleary eyed with his contact stuck to his eyelid he said, "Honey, I really can't tell". Well I had taken enough tests over the last few months to know that it was not a negative, but I went and got another test out of the drawer. This time the line was darker!!!! It was real line, I couldn't stand the excitement, I went back into the bedroom and announced "IT'S A LINE, IT'S DEFINITELY A LINE, WE'RE PREGNANT!". Then I told Patrick that I had to make sure and had to go buy a first response test and not just depend on the two cheapy dollar tree tests that I had already used. So at 4:45 in the morning I drove the ten minutes to the closest Wal-mart, went in got a pregnancy test, and an "I love daddy" bib, checked out and drove back home. The entire time I was in the car, I cried and thanked God for answering my prayers and for giving me what I so desperately want! So I went back into our apartment ran to the bathroom and used one of the newer (more expensive) tests, and sure enough TWO PINK LINES! I was so excited, it was like the first time all over again! I went back into the bedroom and screamed "I'M DEFINITELY PREGNANT!!!" Patrick and I hugged and talked about what to do next. I had planned on calling a family doctor to get checked out because I had felt so lousy lately but now I get to call the OBGYN. I got online and made a new thread on my GP nest message board. I love my GP nesties, they are so supportive and friendly, I couldn't wait to share. I spilled my guts to a bunch of "strangers"! I have never been good at keeping secrets about myself, I am usually an open book, but I had to blurt out what was going on to someone, right then. lol. Many of the girls were ecstatic for me and had been following my trying to conceive journey. Then Patrick and I decided to take a nap. By this time it was almost 8 and we were still tired. We slept for a couple of hours then got back up and had some cheerios for breakfast. While we were eating I told him that I couldn't lie to our moms, that we had to call and let them know that we were pregnant. We did and just told them that it was really early and we weren't telling anyone but them our dads, and a few other close family members until after I had been to the doctor. Our moms were great and we all talked for a while, our dads were really happy but distracted with housework and gardening. When we got off the phone with them I did all my sister Mandie. I figured mom would want to tell someone, so she could call Sarah, and I don't want Jessica knowing yet. We talked for over an hour and she couldn't have been happier. Then Patrick and I ate lunch and got ready to go out. We went and shopped for some books for daddy's to be since Patrick had gotten me What to Expect When You are Expecting for Christmas to tell me he was ready to start our family. We found him a cute and funny book called "So You're Going to be a Dad" and then he found a gown set in green that says "I love my mommy" on the front. We spent over $40 on stuff for the baby who is only the size of a poppy seed today. lol. It was all worth it though. Then we went to dinner with Josh, Natalie, & Jarrod for my belated bday. I was glad that we were eating and getting some water because I had started feeling nauseous while shopping. We had a good time but didn't tell them our big news because we were still being very careful of who we told at first. Besides they had stuff going on too and were talking a bit themselves. So now we are back at home. I got an email from Patrick's cousin Amanda asking if we had any good news to share and I told her that I didn't want to disclose that information until after I was definitely positive. Then my cousin Brandi Im'd me and asked too, I didn't "lie" to her but I didn't admit to anything yet. I am not a good liar, but I didn't want to get everyone excited all for nothing yet. I felt really bad but I wanted to wait until I could get a blood test and get my progesterone levels checked this week. I am worried because all three of my sisters have had miscarriages and I don't want to lose my baby. I think that is enough blogging for today, I am pretty tired and Patrick wants to watch a movie, so I will try to keep this blog thing up to date as much as possible.
Here is a link to my fertility friend chart!
♥ My BFP Chart ♥
Here is a picture of my digital pregnancy test
Every day that I blog I want to say a little prayer at the end. You don't have to read if you dont' want to, but I am a big believer in the power of prayer, after all it got me my little peanut. :)
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Dear God,
Thank you for this blessing that you have given us. Thank you for knowing what is best for our family and for watching over us. Please continue to watch over us and care for us. Please let this baby be healthy and continue to grow in your love.
Ament
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